Hoy quiero que sepas mi principe, que te extraño con el alma, que me queman las manos, por tomar mi telefono, y decirte que te extraño y cuanto te amo.

Que apesar, de que me pierda en el intento, y aunque sienta que es dificil respirar sin ti, aunque muy por dentro se, que siempre sere muy poco para ti, te amare, hasta el ultimo dia de mi vida.

Que no se que va a pasar, en unos dias o unos meses, pero sea lo que sea, una parte de mi murio y solo espero, que viva en ti para siempre.

Que mi felicidad, y mis esperanzas, cambiaron, que no se donde se fueron, pero en mi corazon, siempre quedara una luz encendida, que esperara por ti, hasta que decidas volver a mis brazos.

Espero que estes bien mi amor, mi principe....sin importar cuanto daño me hagas, siempre siempre lo seras...

Repasando mis ultimos dias me di cuenta que ultimamente tengo la tendencia a hacer ciertas cosas que en vez de mejorar mi estado de animo me estan haciendo daño. Y hoy la unica manera que tengo de sacar todo lo que llevo adentro es escribir aqui. Donde no mucha gente lo vea, El domingo fue tu cumpleaños y espero desde lo mas profundo de mi corazon que la hayas pasado super bien. Yo por mi parte, me quiero arrancar el corazon del pecho todos los dias del mundo ya quiero que se me olvide solo por unos momentos que te amo. Y por un ratito no tener que aparentar mas que no me importas cuando todavia solo respiro por ti. Porque aunque intento ignorarlo aun sigues aqui, en mi corazon ,en mi casa, en mi cama, en mi alma.Te extraño con todo lo que tengo, y  no logro comprender porque nos hicimos tanto daño. Porque me dejaste y te deje. Porque convertimos nuestro amor en una guerra diaria.y mientras yo me armo de adjetivos tu me reclamas el peor de mis pecados .Y no se hasta donde llegare, hasta donde te amare, hasta donde me recordaras.

Lo unico que se esque por ti aun descubro lo poco que queda de mi. Si me voy es por ti, si me quedo es igual, si vivo esque muero por ti, cada paso que doy, cada hoja en un arbol , todo tiene sentido por ti, incluso lo poco que queda de mi,mis mejores momentos y hasta mis malos ratos, todo tiene sentido por ti, mi tiempo, mi historia y hasta mis mejores glorias todo tiene sentido por ti...

Tonterias nos separan , y aun asi tenemos una historia sin fin que se vuelve a repetir, Y esque aunque no lo quieras soy parte de ti. Porque despues de tu amor, ya no hay nada, porque siempre caigo rendida a tus pies cuando tu me llamas, porque siempre a cada minuto de vuelvo a extrañar, y aunque quisiera pensar que eres y seras para mi, hoy me muero de miedo de volverte a amar.

Y aunque el mundo entero me caiga encima, y probablemente este completamente fuera de mi mente para decir algo asi, volveria a poner las manos en el fuego por este amor, a perder la razon, porque eres tu el unico que me da ilusion y aun atrapa mi corazon...muero por verte de nuevo a los ojos...y decirte aunque me muera de miedo, perdon...y aun te amo....

I had a very refreshing and very much needed talk, with two amazing persons I have in my life right now. After figuring out a couple of things they came to the conclusion and explained to me, that in order for me to be happy, and feel better, I have to find myself after somewhere along the lines I lost myself…

So this is what I got so far:

Hi!

My Name is Karen Milagro Garro Chacon, and yeah it is a pretty long name, but I like it.

I am completely in love for the first time in my life, really in love, with a great guy, and his name is Francisco Aragon and he changed my life. I have made a lot of mistakes in the past, and have paid for them a couple of times already but I am still trying to get everything together.

I couldn’t remember for the longest time why I liked giraffes so much, and then after doing a lot of thinking, I remembered that when I was little my mom use to take me to church and then we will stop at a little commercial center and she will get me ice cream (chocolate chip my favorite) and then there was a little mechanical giraffe that my mommy will let me ride after putting a couple of cents in and that was my favorite time in the world.

I love Costa Rica and miss every single little detail of it every single day of my life, but I now understand that my life is here, and don’t want to leave and start all over again. I love kids, more than I ever thought I did, and they just warm up my heart with innocent eyes and a big smile.

I care about people around me, sometimes a little to much. And I have a problem getting away from them, even when they might be hurting me. I miss my dad, a lot, or maybe the figure of a dad cause I really never spend a lot of time with him. I have a mommy that I love lots and lots and I never realized how much she means to me until  now that I don’t have her with me every day. Yet still she drives me insane every once in a while.

I love to dance, latin music, a lot, and I am very proud of being Hispanic.

I like to sleep in, though I never get to do it. I don’t mind been awake by a txt message at 8:00 am that says good morning, even when I didn’t sleep at all, cause that totally makes my day.

I love families, that love each other and I really hope I can have one, one day…that instead of arguments and pain will bring joy.

I love cookies, and someone started calling me cookie monster a couple of months ago, and he noticed what no one else did before. (a HUACH sound )

Silly things make me laugh, and it’s not hard to make me smile. Sometimes I loose my track very easily, and I trust people to much. I have bad days very often and really trying to decrease them as much as possible.

I like exercising but I am usually to lazy to do it. I love coffee with three tablespoons of sugar and some type of creamer.

I am very bad with math, and very good on physics. I miss my high school a lot, I love to read and write. And one day I will write a book, or maybe lots of them.

I get a different craving per day. I have lots of stuff animals, and simple things in life make me happy.

My favorite season is Fall, and I would really love to live in New York for some time. I love soccer and I can’t control the way I talk when I am watching a game.

I need daily doses of hugs that only get on Saturdays, and by Wednesday I am going through withdrawals so I get in a bad mood. I like to smoke, though I know is not good for me, and I think the reason why I can’t quit is because I don’t want to.

I am not very good with money, and I love shopping but I hate trying on clothes at stores, especially when nothing fits.

I have lied in the past to try to get out of problems and that only brought more so I really learned from that. And really won’t do it anymore, even if someone paid me for it.

I have a dream, of becoming a pediatrician, and helping people. But the most important thing is that I now have a goal.

I want to be ME, I want to be able to have my own apartment decorated just like I like it. Work nights Monday through Friday, go to bed late and wake up even later and watch tv and not do anything else,.

I get very mad at myself when I realize that I totally screwed up. I had to do one of the hardest things in my life this week and I can’t believe I am still here. I learned this week that I have a thousand reasons to keep going though it doesn’t seem like it.

I have no idea whatsoever on how I am going to survive without mi amor, and how I will relearn how to do everything without him.

But after reading a Farewell letter from Gabriel  Garcia Marquez I realized how lucky I am to be able to enjoy small things of life, with enough life to enjoy them.

I am glad I have so many wonderful friends in my life that are there for me regardless of what’s going on.

And today I want to say thank you, to all our friends for helping me be who I am and Thank you so much for helping my find myself again. And u find any pieces of me, that I really need, please let me know so I can go and pick them up!

There are so many things that I came to realize in the last couple of months. I realize that live gave me a chance to start all over again and make things right when I moved here and even though is so hard, I keep being blessed by so many awesome things.

I came to realize that for the first time in my life, there’s someone that changes everything and that I really want to fight for.

And I was so close to loose it, for something that is not worth it all, and I came to realize what trust really means, what love really means…

This words are just to say I am so sorry for compromising the most important thing in my life right now, and thank you… thank you for stopping your mind for a moment and giving me the chance to talk. For leaving the door open so I could run behind you, and for also recognizing your mistake, because all of this will only make us grow together .

Thanks for bringing me back to live!!!!

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we´re grey and old
´cos I´ve been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I’m lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all he offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call he wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

when I’m feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know ill always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
he breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all he offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call he wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

Happy

2

Month Aniverssary

My Prince

Te quiero mucho!!!

It has been a year already. Exactly a year ago I left my beloved home to come to a new place and start all over again. With so much fear but so many hopes and lots of faith.

Even though lots of times I almost grabbed my things and went back to the people I love so much and all the things I miss I really think it was totally worth it to stay. After some more mistakes made and one or two regrets I really think this is going to be a year to solve my problems and put my life on the right track.

I still get homesick and miss my friends specially Sergio but I have been blessed with very important new friendships and a wonderful person that feels up my life with wonderful moments and true feelings. And as scared as I was of this happening, I only know now that I am very happy and now I feel like I have the strengh to deal with everything that comes, no matter what.

Thank u for giving me that strengh....Te quiero mucho mi amor!!!!!!!

I know I keep getting away from writing for a long time but seriously there are so many things going on that makes it really hard to update this every now and then.

I have a lot of stuff to say and I'm going to start with the bad news: I got into a car accident to days ago...it was really scary and I'm super sad 'cause my car is pretty messed up, I mean insurance will cover it but it just sucks big time that you just keep working for something and all of a sudden you feel like you're loosing everything. And do you know what is the worst part of it? That something like this actually needs to happen for you to realize how important is your life and the people that is on it, your life goes through your head in matter of seconds and you just realize how many things you have to do that you can't leave yet. But thanks God I'm still around and I just want to tell all my friends and family that I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY SINGLE BEAT OF MY HEART AND I"M EXTREMELY THANKFUL FOR HAVING YOU CLOSE OR FAR TO ME =).

So moving right along, I also came to realize that life is a disapointment, you keep getting dissapointed your whole life, about so many different tjhins, people that said they'll be around for ever and ever and never did, the ones who say they will stop doing something harmfull and they don't, the ones that expect a lot from you but didn't give anything back, we all have expectations in different areas, work, home, love, friendship and when these are not meet you get dissapointed. I got a lot of dissapointments in the las month, a loy of serious stuff going on,but you know what? You also get nice moments, new oportunities, new experiences, my new opportunities happened twice , I was able to realize that I have two wonderful persons by my side, that have shown that they're super friends, so Ashley and Mario I know I have said this enough times but you just don't know how much everything you do means to me, you huys seriously make Arizona a better place. Luv ya !!!!!!!!

And then the second one was that I got to meet a very cool person at work , that has been using magical powers to make my days better and go by faster, I really don't know how this happened..the only thing I know is that I'm really glas he's around.

Other than that I have a lot of things but I might write later I'm really tires...meanwhile I'll be enjoying my loneliness, it ended up been not bad all the time =)

Have a nice weekend =)

Si tan solo con palabras pudiera decir lo que siento por dentro, me tiraria de bruces al viento y lo gritaria a todo pulmon y lo repitiria a quien lo quiera escuchar.Si eso fuera suficiente para explicar que no sentia esto desde hace seis años y que es tanta mi felicidad que por primera vez bajan lagrimas por mis mejillas pero de alegria y no de tristeza.

Despues de seis años logre comprender que todo pasa por una razon, que el tiempo que se espere despues de tantas heridas vale la pena, que aunque en estos momentos solo tenga la oportunidad de escuchar su voz por telefono y recibir sus mensajes no cambio eso por nada, porque pude decir nuevamente "te amo " y que saliera del corazon,porque si tuviera que volver a pasar por todo lo haria aun sabiendo como termino solo por el hecho de poder sentir esto en mi corazon , el sentimiento que jamas pense poder volver a sentir, y tener una ilusion real para levantarme, y acostarme y soñar, por poder andar por el mundo con una sonrisa verdadera en mi cara y porque el mejor regalo que me pudo dar fue el saber que aun recuerda cada uno de los momentos que pasamos juntos, que los gurada en el lugar mas especial asi como yo lo hice, y que los dos tenemos claro que fue culpa de los dos y dejamos de  culpar el uno al otro y por fin dejamos de desperdiciar el tiempo y palabras sin sentido. Porque nuevamente no importa que tan mal esten las demas cosas, mi corazon esta completo y porque eso no tiene precio.

Y hoy solo quiero gritarle al mundo a los que se alegran por verme feliz y a los que se enojan por mi tranquilidad que sigo en pie, que puedo morir tranquila porque el dia mas esperado de mi vida llego y que por fin puedo decir mi frase favorita tiene completo sentido ....

"el amor es un premio para valientes, solo el que se juega por el puede disfrutarlo "

It was this activity going on today at work called confesions, something like when you play truth or dare, it was funny...makes you think of all the things that you think and feel and you never say ...

So here I go....

I confess I want to quit smoking but I enjoy it so much I'm not ever able to.

I confess I'm tired of been homesick.

I confess I'm also tired of changing my life's track every six months.

I confess I miss my friends with every beat of my heart and that sometimes I feel jelous of their other friends 'cause I don't get to be with them.

I confess I am in love and I didn't planned it.

I confess I hate when my boss gives me the worst answers I've ever heard.

I confess I'll give everything I have just to go back in time and live everything that has to do with him again.

I confess I am staying here for I don't know how much time .

I confess that...staying here will make me loose important people...and that is going to hurt me so much...but I'll still realize who my real friends are...

I confess I love you ...and it grows with every breath I take, with every second that goes and with every tear that falls...