I had a very refreshing and very much needed talk, with two amazing persons I have in my life right now. After figuring out a couple of things they came to the conclusion and explained to me, that in order for me to be happy, and feel better, I have to find myself after somewhere along the lines I lost myself…

So this is what I got so far:

Hi!

My Name is Karen Milagro Garro Chacon, and yeah it is a pretty long name, but I like it.

I am completely in love for the first time in my life, really in love, with a great guy, and his name is Francisco Aragon and he changed my life. I have made a lot of mistakes in the past, and have paid for them a couple of times already but I am still trying to get everything together.

I couldn’t remember for the longest time why I liked giraffes so much, and then after doing a lot of thinking, I remembered that when I was little my mom use to take me to church and then we will stop at a little commercial center and she will get me ice cream (chocolate chip my favorite) and then there was a little mechanical giraffe that my mommy will let me ride after putting a couple of cents in and that was my favorite time in the world.

I love Costa Rica and miss every single little detail of it every single day of my life, but I now understand that my life is here, and don’t want to leave and start all over again. I love kids, more than I ever thought I did, and they just warm up my heart with innocent eyes and a big smile.

I care about people around me, sometimes a little to much. And I have a problem getting away from them, even when they might be hurting me. I miss my dad, a lot, or maybe the figure of a dad cause I really never spend a lot of time with him. I have a mommy that I love lots and lots and I never realized how much she means to me until  now that I don’t have her with me every day. Yet still she drives me insane every once in a while.

I love to dance, latin music, a lot, and I am very proud of being Hispanic.

I like to sleep in, though I never get to do it. I don’t mind been awake by a txt message at 8:00 am that says good morning, even when I didn’t sleep at all, cause that totally makes my day.

I love families, that love each other and I really hope I can have one, one day…that instead of arguments and pain will bring joy.

I love cookies, and someone started calling me cookie monster a couple of months ago, and he noticed what no one else did before. (a HUACH sound )

Silly things make me laugh, and it’s not hard to make me smile. Sometimes I loose my track very easily, and I trust people to much. I have bad days very often and really trying to decrease them as much as possible.

I like exercising but I am usually to lazy to do it. I love coffee with three tablespoons of sugar and some type of creamer.

I am very bad with math, and very good on physics. I miss my high school a lot, I love to read and write. And one day I will write a book, or maybe lots of them.

I get a different craving per day. I have lots of stuff animals, and simple things in life make me happy.

My favorite season is Fall, and I would really love to live in New York for some time. I love soccer and I can’t control the way I talk when I am watching a game.

I need daily doses of hugs that only get on Saturdays, and by Wednesday I am going through withdrawals so I get in a bad mood. I like to smoke, though I know is not good for me, and I think the reason why I can’t quit is because I don’t want to.

I am not very good with money, and I love shopping but I hate trying on clothes at stores, especially when nothing fits.

I have lied in the past to try to get out of problems and that only brought more so I really learned from that. And really won’t do it anymore, even if someone paid me for it.

I have a dream, of becoming a pediatrician, and helping people. But the most important thing is that I now have a goal.

I want to be ME, I want to be able to have my own apartment decorated just like I like it. Work nights Monday through Friday, go to bed late and wake up even later and watch tv and not do anything else,.

I get very mad at myself when I realize that I totally screwed up. I had to do one of the hardest things in my life this week and I can’t believe I am still here. I learned this week that I have a thousand reasons to keep going though it doesn’t seem like it.

I have no idea whatsoever on how I am going to survive without mi amor, and how I will relearn how to do everything without him.

But after reading a Farewell letter from Gabriel  Garcia Marquez I realized how lucky I am to be able to enjoy small things of life, with enough life to enjoy them.

I am glad I have so many wonderful friends in my life that are there for me regardless of what’s going on.

 

And today I want to say thank you, to all our friends for helping me be who I am and Thank you so much for helping my find myself again. And u find any pieces of me, that I really need, please let me know so I can go and pick them up!